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I did hear back from Xavier University in ohio - they made an offer to another candidate who accepted. Which I was more bummed about than I realized. Still waiting to hear back from Grinnell. Tried to touch base with the director there today only to discover that they're out of the office until Aug 15. So I won't know anything until then. Still trying to figure out if we're going to Poland for my cousin's wedding Aug 25. If it's a no from Grinnell, we go; if it's a yes, we don't. But plane tickets are non-refundable and we're not rich enough to drop that much money and possibly lose it.
Of course, I work a summer proofreading job which is temporary. It was going to roughly go till Aug 17 (which is about when my original plan to leave for Poland was). Today we found out they're keeping us roughly till Aug 24 if we want. Ever since being flown out for interviews though, I've been in this awkward position of any day could be my last day if I get an offer and have to move. The uncertainty was getting to me and I had a really bad mental health day last week because of it and I took this past Monday off because I needed a day to start attacking stuff around the house. (which hasn't been properly cleaned top to bottom since before the crazy travel schedule that was july). This past week I've been starting to think that I don't want to work past today. Whether I go to poland or need to move to Iowa, I'm going to need time to get the house in order & pack. And then I realized that we haven't had a vacation at all this summer and somehow it's been this crazy juggling act where I've done lots of little things, but it was crazy.
I realized that my brain needed to just stop. Work is slow and while getting paid to do nothing is nice, I knew I just needed to take a step back. Made today my last day.
So next week I CLEAN ALL THINGS and maybe get in some kayaking or biking or vacationing. But if we can put a dent in the condo to-do list, I'll be happy. And if I get an offer from Grinnell, I'll be overjoyed, but hopefully if it's a no, I'll find out in time to still go to Poland.
Of course, I work a summer proofreading job which is temporary. It was going to roughly go till Aug 17 (which is about when my original plan to leave for Poland was). Today we found out they're keeping us roughly till Aug 24 if we want. Ever since being flown out for interviews though, I've been in this awkward position of any day could be my last day if I get an offer and have to move. The uncertainty was getting to me and I had a really bad mental health day last week because of it and I took this past Monday off because I needed a day to start attacking stuff around the house. (which hasn't been properly cleaned top to bottom since before the crazy travel schedule that was july). This past week I've been starting to think that I don't want to work past today. Whether I go to poland or need to move to Iowa, I'm going to need time to get the house in order & pack. And then I realized that we haven't had a vacation at all this summer and somehow it's been this crazy juggling act where I've done lots of little things, but it was crazy.
I realized that my brain needed to just stop. Work is slow and while getting paid to do nothing is nice, I knew I just needed to take a step back. Made today my last day.
So next week I CLEAN ALL THINGS and maybe get in some kayaking or biking or vacationing. But if we can put a dent in the condo to-do list, I'll be happy. And if I get an offer from Grinnell, I'll be overjoyed, but hopefully if it's a no, I'll find out in time to still go to Poland.