jagienka: (spiritual - rosary angst)
jagienka ([personal profile] jagienka) wrote2008-11-09 07:33 pm

Weekend in review..

... a.k.a. retreating to family, friends preaching, alma mater, church shopping, and chaplains..

So, after a shit week and [livejournal.com profile] bad_influence's parents asking if we were coming down this weekend because we haven't been home in awhile, I said, sure! let's go. I had/have a lot of work to do, but the thought of getting out of boston for a weekend, of being in a big house with lots of hugs and snuggles and non-school people, and good food, and being able to be daughter #2 instead of grad student and spiritual angster just sounded like a dream. And it was. There was delicious mac n' cheese with ham waiting for us when we arrived, and then a great dinner with the Fitz's. (Where we found out that our good friends are expecting! Yay! Babies!)

While the original plan for today had been to check out St. Paul's Wickfordand St. Augustine's in Rhode Island near North Kingstown, but then yesterday I found out that one of my good friends & classmates from Smith was preaching at the Interfaith Service for Otelia Cromwell Day today at Smith. I thought it'd be amazing to hear her preach, and considering I was in the mood of wanting to escape Harvard, an excuse to drive out to Smith sounded great. It was a little inconvenient considering I was in RI for the weekend, but it was totally worth it. All the Christian chaplains were there - Rev. Leon, Madre, Rev. Jennifer Walters - and none of them knew I was coming. So, it was good. Apparently they're quite proud of me being at HDS and all that and we had some really great conversations. Nichole's sermon was amazing and I was glad to be there for her first time preaching in public. The service was amazing with the Amherst Regional High School Chorale singing, Grant playing the organ and all the chaplains. It was like coming home. There was no angst, just an overabundance of love and acceptance and support and that was what I needed. It's hard to articulate just how refreshing it was to be there.

After the service there was a chaplain's brunch that Nichole & I went to as well at Wiggins Tavern in the Hotel Northampton. I think Northampton will always be home to me at some level. I wished I had time to wander around and see how the town has changed, but I had a schedule to keep. I had made great time in the morning (1h45min) but there was an accident on the way back which took me just shy of two hours. Empty Mass Pike = fun.

Made it back to RI & [livejournal.com profile] bad_influence & I decided to just try to head up to Boston and beat the end of the Patriots game traffic. We caught some of the traffic unfortunately, but still made decent time. Since we were home in Somerville at 5:10, I decided I really had no excuse not to hit up The Episcopal Chaplaincy Harvard @ Christ Church mass which I had been intending to check out at some point. I was debating a lot, but I'm back in that spiritual state where even though I went to an interfaith service today I still felt the need to go to mass. So I checked it out with the intent to hide. Unfortunately, Ben did the thing during the sign of peace of going up and down the aisle and giving peace to <i>everyone</i> so he discovered me and chided me to stay after mass.

(As a backstory, at Friday's mass I spent the whole time curled up with my knees to my chest, sobbing, didn't receive communion, etc. I tried to run away right after mass, but Ben stopped me, apologized for the fact that he had the diocesan convention fri & sat, and reminded me that we'd talk on monday for tea. i just nodded through the tears and did my best to blow him off).

The mass itself wasn't bad. It was omg!wonderful, but it was really nice to worship with a bunch of students. It's not Smith or anything, but I am considering doing my field ed there next year. I think I would enjoy it a lot. Spent a lot of mass crying, big surprise. After mass, Ben caught me and tried to get me to stay for dinner, but I pulled the emotionally unstable/not in a good mood to deal with people card. He let me skip out of dinner under promise that I would show up for our tea tomorrow (which I want to blow off) and that he'd find out everything then.

Right now, I'm in that mood where I don't want to deal with clergy. I want to go on retreat till christmas, not juggle everything. I'm not sure whether or not I'll go tomorrow. It depends on a lot of things.

But yeah. Now off to catch a light supper and then to hopefully start catching up on academics.